For a person whose dreams are as big as she is crazy, it is sometimes hard for me to imagine laying those same dreams down at Jesus’ feet. There have been many – MANY times in my life where I had a dream and God said “No” to it.
There was the time I wanted to act in Hollywood.
The time I wanted to go into direct selling – twice.
The time I wanted to own a magazine.
The time I wanted to become a youth pastor.
The time I wanted to become an accomplished writer by taking an awesome writing course.
“No” doesn’t always mean “Never.”
In fact, many times, the dreams we have are noble ones… but we have to remember that God’s timing is not our own.
I truly believe I’m meant to be involved in youth. I think I may have been guilty of what many mainstream Christians can be guilty of: assigning God’s voice to one of my own desires. I’ve come to accept that I may never be a youth pastor, but that doesn’t mean I can’t help out in youth and use my talents to the glory of God in my church’s youth group. I don’t have to be the top of the chain. God doesn’t call everyone to a high position of power – if that were the case, all the church custodians in the world would be living against the will of God.
In my life, I see God calling me to humility more often than positions of power.
I see Him reminding me, as often as necessary, that it’s not about me. I am meant to glorify God with my life, and help others. I should be a support and encouragement to those around me. The Lord has led me, through my pastor (& also through my husband), when I have begun to get off-track. Through their leadership, I have often heard the refrain, “You are a mother first.” Admittedly, it wasn’t one I was too fond of at first. Eventually, I realized that motherhood is the highest calling I have right now. It’s also one with some of the least recognition, which is probably why I took issue with it! Pride is no joke!
As our good shepherd, God leads us. Along the way, He is watching to see if we will listen to His voice.
He will be faithful to instruct us, but we must listen carefully and refuse to dig our heels in if He should say something we don’t want to hear. We must go where He leads, not where we think is right.
You may wonder, “What if it’s something we REALLY want? Can’t we just do that one little thing?”
There are no small things to God. If we disobey and do our own thing, we are not living for Him, and not acting like we are even His.
“My sheep listen to my voice; I know them, and they follow me.” John 10:27
If we are His, we follow, even when we don’t understand.